Find a Different Bad Guy

I hereby resign from the role of The Bad Guy.

If I do something I regret, I will apologize.

Aside from that? I think I'm ready to channel some wilder ferocity back into my life. In protection of my own safety, space, and need to keep out of the way of harm.

This has been a lifelong challenge, being what a friend from long ago called being 'People's Blame Receptacle.'

It's disgusting and I'm not up for it any more.

Here are some tips for those who tend to stay in Victim, rather than in a position of Authority in their own lives:

> If you have beef with someone, air it out. Go to them. Tell them what you're feeling. Have an action plan. Tell them what you want. Have a clear idea of what the outcome will be if you get what you want, and if you don't.

> If you feel like someone is constantly trying to hurt you, stay away from them. Cut communication.

> If you refuse to take 50% of the action to right whatever is wrong, you are at *least* half of the problem.

> If you need to take an emotional dump, be sure the person you're dumping on has the bandwidth to handle the load. Even if it's not about them, dumping your burdens is heavy for whoever you're unloading on.

I'm taking my own advice here, just so it's said.

I cannot tell you the number of times during body work, with people who know me and with people who don't, that I've been told they're pulling out projections *from other people into me*.

Yes, sometimes they're also going out, not nearly as often though.

This is part of what being a HD Projector looks like. Add that to the 2/5 profile--Hermit/Heretic, and we have a really lovely combination set to light fires, often with me tied to the metaphorical stake.

I'm done. I've had it too many times this week. Out of the blue. Random AF. Beyond what I can physically or emotionally handle without becoming physically ill...and when I'm already exhausted and in pain thanks to Long Haulers? It's too much.

I give so much. Compassion. Space. I listen so much and deeply. I'm inviting those of you who are also like this more deeply into my space, into my life, into my circle of relations. Those who can give and take. Speak and listen.

From now on dumping is by appointment only and is $125 for the first 1-2 hours, $75 per hour after that.